Owning Your Own Destiny, Stepping out of History, and Inner Poise
Posted: Monday, June 14, 2010
by Jennifer Stewart
Stepping out of History
Rumor has it that the road to success is to own your own destiny, or attract it by famous law. Banish self-doubt! Positive think your way into self confidence! Visualize your success and it will happen!
The other day, from position of great spiritual awareness and inner poise and conviction of bright future I got an email from Oprah and OWN.
Okay, so a million other people also got one, still it's something, isn't it? She sends out mail asking questions for her new network, and the question du jour was "what brought about change in your life?" Hah! I've got an answer for that one, it's tailor made for me. I thought, at last, it's my turn to be noticed by Oprah! Yesss! It's because of heightened spiritual awareness and inner poise. Success is days away. Imagine my even more excessive excitement when I saw she's also looking to discover somebody. I thought the two were connected.
You see! I shouted to the world and nobody in particular. The cat, asleep on a chair, opened one eye and contemplated me through it. I've done it, I've done it!! I've stepped out of History, just like my blog says.
I felt like a kid in class who had the answer. Now since I was the kid in the class who never did, this was a new and thrilling experience. "I know what made me change!!" 1. I had all sorts of horrible things happen when I was v. young and knew I was trapped and wanted to change, but didn't know how; 2. I met a brilliant therapist and his wife whose practice is called the Human Potential Development Center; and 3. My aspirations were too strong to die even though I couldn't attend to them because was busy trying to accomplish Maslow-type survival. 4. The coup de grace - I went bankrupt!
That's pretty exciting isn't it? It could make a good story, right? It does to me. So in 1500 well chosen, convincing, passionate, pithy words I told the story of my Adventurous Life so far, my Triumph Through Adversity. Yes, yes yes!!! I'm going to be discovered by Oprah. God, the universe and I are all aligned in conspiring to create a brilliant future for me.
Then I noticed that the discovery thing is something different. Oh. And you have to have a big personality.
Oh.
Crash. Am not woman of substance with inner poise after all, am just mousy, unfunny, unoriginal wishful thinking loser. Will never be good enough to make it into Oprah's club of Important People who've really made it. Oprah would look at me and say "you? I don't think so." Just like my older sister did.
Hate the universe and god and my older sister. Have not stepped out of history, hate history, hate stepping. Wish the cat would stop staring at me.
The other day, from position of great spiritual awareness and inner poise and conviction of bright future I got an email from Oprah and OWN.
You see! I shouted to the world and nobody in particular. The cat, asleep on a chair, opened one eye and contemplated me through it. I've done it, I've done it!! I've stepped out of History, just like my blog says.
I felt like a kid in class who had the answer. Now since I was the kid in the class who never did, this was a new and thrilling experience. "I know what made me change!!" 1. I had all sorts of horrible things happen when I was v. young and knew I was trapped and wanted to change, but didn't know how; 2. I met a brilliant therapist and his wife whose practice is called the Human Potential Development Center; and 3. My aspirations were too strong to die even though I couldn't attend to them because was busy trying to accomplish Maslow-type survival. 4. The coup de grace - I went bankrupt!
That's pretty exciting isn't it? It could make a good story, right? It does to me. So in 1500 well chosen, convincing, passionate, pithy words I told the story of my Adventurous Life so far, my Triumph Through Adversity. Yes, yes yes!!! I'm going to be discovered by Oprah. God, the universe and I are all aligned in conspiring to create a brilliant future for me.
Then I noticed that the discovery thing is something different. Oh. And you have to have a big personality.
Oh.
Crash. Am not woman of substance with inner poise after all, am just mousy, unfunny, unoriginal wishful thinking loser. Will never be good enough to make it into Oprah's club of Important People who've really made it. Oprah would look at me and say "you? I don't think so." Just like my older sister did.
Hate the universe and god and my older sister. Have not stepped out of history, hate history, hate stepping. Wish the cat would stop staring at me.
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More commentsNot usually my cup of tea but I really enjoyed it. Very well written.I'm glad you enjoyed it, and thanks!
You are a hoot! You get my vote for a writer who can make me think, chuckle and relate to my cats all in one article! (Why do they do that one eyed thing? I like it much better when they half close their eyes several times in response to you doing the same - that means "I love you"? Doesn't it?)You do that too - if you do it real slow, they do the same back. Cat hypnosis... Great response, Marijo, thanks!THANKS for joining my fan club!
Oh, Jennifer. You soooooo underestimate your personality. I have read your articles and enjoy your way with words, your wit and ability to pen your experiences perfectly! I am glad you are part of SearchWarp...who needs Oprah, anyway?That's wonderful, Lorrie, thanks. I appear to be the only one who likes Oprah :)
Jennifer Stewart- You are right to point that Positive thinking your way into self confidence and Visualize your success are surely to invoke consciousness that is inner house of spiritual energy and it surely happen! Positive thinking itself transform your right character to the preset state of mind. Thanks for sharing thoughts from the heart.Thanks for your comments, G.S. I'm glad you enjoyed reading.
jenhey, this article s popping up everywhere-way to go-ditto on my previous remarks.bingThanks for the double rating, bing. Still waiting for the bill - and the next installment on your last article...:) J
You must be my twin and we were separated at birth and though geography separates us, the same observations and conclusions bind us together through time and space and, please dear God no, not eternity as well. The simple truth is that the title of your blog tells me anything and everything I would really ever need or want to know about you and it's all good stuff. Nothing but the absolute best to you.Well, thank you Randy. Pleased to meet you...
It's the Johnny Depp Syndrome. Without his influence, Nicholas Cage admits he would've never pursued acting but it was Mr. Depp who insisted, coerced Mr. Cage into at least giving acting a shot. I'm weary--no, plain ol' @#$%&*ing sick and tired--of those "successful" people (business, the "arts," whatever) who would have you and me they achieved their success in a vacuum, that they alone deserve all the credit. In short, it's called "getting a break". The only remaining mystery to me is a question with no real answer: Why this person and not that? So I've extrapolated from that completely unoriginal observation, the truth that I'm apparently never going to get that "break," that my life is indeed, and from that narrow point of view, irrevocably @#$%&*ed up. Truth? It feels pretty damned good.I think everybody is in the process of trying to find something meaningful and all of us are equally vulnerable, no matter how preachy or chest-beating they seem to be. I get edgy when somebody else's perspective contradicts mine, but I don't fundamentally believe that's because they're wrong or bad. Rather it's because I'm not secure enough in myself.If I understand you, I agree that "getting a break" is about somebody helping, but I don't believe in chaos, I don't think it's random.
What fun! ThanxPleasure, I'm glad you enjoyed it!
This type of writing is best suited for recording thoughts and passions in ones diary.Gosh, thanks for telling me. And you are? I'd like to see what you write...
You never know. You might still be discovered by Oprah! I enjoyed your article.Yes, yes yes!!! I'm glad you enjoyed reading.
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